sleepin' in...

oh my goodness. i slept until 11:30 this morning. oh it felt good!
we went to LifeGroup last night, which is like a bible study. one of the leaders, Kevin, mentioned the fact that he tends to replace God time with God activity time (outreaches, going to church, etc.), and i realized that i do the same thing. i spend time on the internet that i could spend with God. i spend time reading nothing (books, random stuff i run across, etc. etc. etc.), i spend time messing around in my room, i spend time laying on the floor just being dumb, when i could talk to Him instead. now, yes, some of the things i do aren't necessarily bad (spending quality time with my roommates or my friend Will), but there are times that i need to say no and spend time with God instead. i get lazy, i get selfish, i procrastinate; and it hurts.
i am realizing how much i really do need God. without Him i stress, i cry, i get angry and frustrated, and quite frankly, i can't and won't make it. i am different from some people in that when life is good, i draw closer to God, i pray and read my Bible, and i love Him and talk about Him. when life is hard i tend to pull away, to try to do it myself instead; and that's a dangerous place for me to be.
today, i am happy, at peace, in love with God and my friends. what i worry about is when i go back...