all-nighter

consideration, deliberation... time to blog.
i am sitting in the Study Room on Arnold 3rd at 5:18 am. i have just finished my 5 page paper on Islam. i compared it to a weed. since i am on two bottles of Vault and plan to drink another within the next couple of hours, it should be interesting to find out if my BS is coherent.
i procrastinate. sadly. this is something i need to work on, and i know i'm going to have to change something soon. considering the fact that i have been ill more times in the last three months than i have in the last five years, something tells me that i am not taking care of myself. if i continue this path of self-destruction, i could end up seriously hurting myself physically.
i received some bad news recently, hence the title of my last post. i am beginning to pull strength from God as i draw closer to Him. while my heart will hurt for a time, i know He has a plan and there is a reason for everything. while i don't understand, i trust Him. i am crying on His shoulder, and He is comforting me.
in the midst of my pain and confusion, my heart is at peace. i can smile and not fake it. i am blessed to be able to say that His peace passes all my understanding, and while i am going to need more of it as time goes on, i am grateful to have it and know that i will be okay. the sun will rise, i will breathe, and life will go on.
i am tempted to write more, but it is now nearly 5:30 and i still have two tests to study for...
blessed be the Name of the Lord.