the whole world in His hands...

usually i start these with random observations. i have none to make.

a good friend of mine, whom i had known for several years and graduated high school with, Lygon, was caught in an avalanche on Thursday. on Friday, her brother, who had been hiking with her and was also caught in the avalanche, called for an ambulance due to broken ribs and told them he had not seen his sister since the slide. crews searched Friday and Saturday, but called off the search Saturday afternoon due to inclement weather and the incredibly high odds that she did not survive. they will be returning to the site of the slide in the spring to recover her body.

it's funny how a lot of things get brought into perspective. she was 21. my age. MY friend. she's not supposed to die. it's too soon! we have so much life ahead of us... i know she's happy, and that she's where i want to be more than anything... she'd laugh at me for how much i've cried over her. i am sharply reminded of how much more i could have added to our friendship, how i could have kept in touch, how i should have made arrangements to see her when i was home. i was not the kind of friend i should have been to her, and i regret it.

there are so many things i could say, would say... but my words are falling out in the form of tears, and i cannot put them into thoughts you'd understand. i don't want to believe she's gone. i don't want to think that i'll never have the opportunity to remedy the mistakes i made in simply growing apart. the hardest part... is realizing how short life is. how little time we have. and how we need to make every minute count.

i don't really know what else to say... please pray for her family. i know it's hard on them, especially her brother.