aaaaaaaaaand we're back!

so it's been... about 5 and a half months since i last posted on here... gosh, i'm such a slacker! ha!

at any rate...
this summer was pretty challenging. i struggled with a lot of things, the first and hardest being the end of an unhealthy relationship that wasn't honoring God or each other. even though it was the right thing to do, it was still a breakup, and still decidedly painful.

on top of that, i was struggling with burnout with my job, dissatisfaction with life in general... and there were quite a few events that didn't make my summer any easier. granted, i brought a lot of it on myself by not being consistent with my dealings with coworkers and friends.

i got stretched a lot, both spiritually and emotionally. stretching never feels very good... but once it's done, you're glad it happened. well... at least i'm glad.

towards the end of the summer, my towering accomplishment would be that i finally got my driver's license, and bought a car. considering my fear of other cars, what i term as car claustrophobia, it's a pretty big deal. i still get nervous driving in unfamiliar places... i nearly got hit yesterday by some girl going 65 in a 35 mph lane... i'm learning defensive driving really quickly!

this past Monday, i moved to Colorado Springs, to live with my sister, her husband, and their son. my sister was due to have their daughter this past tuesday, but Abi seems to think she's not ready to come yet... so we're all waiting on pins and needles... i take that back. i'm waiting on the couch.

i'm also in the process of job hunting, which quite possibly is one of my least favorite experiences. i am not exactly the world's most assertive person, nor do i like "selling people on myself," so it's been a challenge to bolster up enough courage, walk through restaurant doors, and ask if they're hiring. but i'm learning a lot in the process, even if it does take me fifteen minutes to get out of my car!

right now, i'm dealing with cow manure. not literally... a speaker recently described pet sins as cow manure. we think it makes us feel good, but it's like eating a big pile of cow manure. it's not good for us, and will make us sick if we keep doing it. she told us to pick our top three sins, and then work on them one at a time. whenever i catch myself struggling, i stop and remind myself that i'm eating cow manure, and pray for help. the funny part is people's faces when i am walking by, or standing near them, and i mumble "cow manure!" but it really is helping me conquer some struggles i've had for a while... which makes me happy.

at this point, i think this blog is long enough to discourage even the most voracious of my blog readers (which i don't know who that would be, considering i don't know who all reads my blog... but still), so i'm going to go get ready for more interviews... and post more often so i won't have to give another mile-and-a-half long update. :P